It is really hard to trust people. You said you love me. You said you will stay single forever if it’s not me. But now look at you. You get married in your young age. Congrats. For long time. This whole year. I miss you alone. It is only me who keep staying in the past. Now, it is the time to let you go. I wish for the happiness for your life and my life.
What are you doing aabis? How are you? Why i still miss you?
I miss you, aabis
Im starting new chapter. In this chapter, i will try harder to move on
Tomorrow is my brother’s wedding day. Remember? If u really come i think i will ask u to sneak out at night to have time sitting at the seashore with me. I will hold your arm and rest my head on your shoulder. Feel the night wind blow. Hear the waves crashing. And gazing the moolight in the sky. But here i am. Sitting alone. Without you.
Period is always be my hard time . Cause i became clingy when im in relationship. And became lonely when im single. I miss you my little boy. You gave me so many butterflies when u sent me this.
And it is okay. I still feel gratefull. Cause i know you loved me. I don’t know about the future, but in the past, you loved me. And that’s enough. I felt loved and i was happy. Thankyou. I remember the first time u hugged me. I could hear your heart beat so loud. So i was thinking “it must be his first time” and that was super cute. Then, i found out you got fired by your job for flying to indonesia. You said multiple times about what i did to you, when i hold your hands, when i feed my food to you, the car moments, the rainy moments. U remembered all the things. U cried alot when we said good bye. You made so much time for me even when u were afar, when u were tired. U planned to back just to meet me. U said pretty to my every pictures, u said i miss u and i love you everyday. And still many things u did for me. That was amazing feelings i got from you. I feel so gratefull to had you 🙂
I remember when you said that im yours. U said i smell good. U kissed me. U hugs me. U always get angry everytime i got hurt, when im so careless. I remember u make time just to watch movie together. That time i hope i can fly to you and hug you tight. I felt so loved by you that time. I feel sooo gratefull to Allah cause He brings a man like you for me. But idk that u can change this much. How could u became so cold. You stop asking my pictures. You stop telling me pretty. You stop make time for me. You became so slow repond lately. But i still love you. So dumb i even always pray to Allah to always give u the best life. Make u better person for urself and your future partner. Untill now, i still Ask Allah for ur happiness. Yeah, i love you. I love you my aabis.
Dear universe. Can u send my “hi” to him? But don’t make him worried because of it. Send it and make him happy with that. Also tell him that i miss him, i still love him. But once again. Dont make him worried or sad because of my feelings. Make him feel calm and comfortable because of that. My feelings are that sincere to him. I really want him happy. Hope he finds what he really want in his life 🙂 hope he becomes a better man. A man that will always respect his woman. A man that will always miss his woman, that will always love his woman. And.. a man that will always fight for his woman, that never give up on her.
I want to say “i love you” everyday. Like i said. But i can’t. Cause we are stranger now.
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